Friday, April 9, 2010

I don't even know where to begin...

Bringing mother to the beach was a BAD BAD VERY BAD idea. I feel sorry for her, but sorrier for Hank, Ned, and me. I know I should put on my big girl britches but good grief, there is a limit to how much people can take. She keeps saying that we're taking her back to hometown tomorrow. She's asked at least 25 times about her house and her car. She doesn't have the slightest idea what month or day it is and keeps forgetting where her bedroom is (and it isn't that big of a condo.) When we're in the car she reads out loud what is written on every sign on the road. She won't leave Ned alone...and she won't stop talking. ALL THE TIME...she babbles about this or that. And she won't sit down for more than five minutes at the time. Up and down...up and down...up and down.

This was a very bad idea....I was afraid it would be and let Hank talk me into doing this but knows it isn't working out. After lunch, we stopped by a garden shop and left mother and Ned in the car while we ran inside. As soon as we got out of earshot, Hank glanced back at me and said, "I know...I'm in trouble..."

I don't know WHEN I've been so frustrated...I''m actually afraid that I might involuntarily start SCREAMING.

I'm ashamed but this is what it is and it AIN'T good!!!!


  1. You did what you thought was the right thing to do and I'm so sorry that things have not worked out. Hang in there and I hope you all can make it through the weekend. I will be praying for you, Hank and Ned to be able to tolerate her the rest of the weekend and keep your sanity! I know it is so frustrating to see your loved ones in this way. Love & blessings from NC!

  2. I know you are all doing the best you can. Don't feel badly and if you want to scream...go somewhere and scream, let some stream off! You have been an angel and someone needs to pat you on the pretend I am!


  3. My heart goes out to you! I was raised by my divorced mother who's own mother lived w/us for a time when I was a teen, because she developed Alzheimers soon after her husband died. I worry about my own mother now who in her mid 70's has finally retired an seems to be getting more and more difficult. I think your blogging bout this is very helpful and I for one truly understand the need to vent and let it go. I will pray for you! God bless!

  4. The plan was so sweet and unselfish and good in the abstract. And in the big picture and in the long run, you'll be so glad you did it. You really will. The reality is sometimes hard to take. Just know that you can say anything to us and scream all you want!! Love and Hugs! xoxo

  5. Belle, you are not alone. My mother-in-law lived with us for a while. She had dementia, or its form. I felt like screaming sometimes, too. You are mighty brave to take her on a trip--Hank is a SAINT!

  6. I'm so sorry to hear you're having a rough time. Praying for you!

  7. Don't feel badly and if you want to scream...go somewhere and scream,
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  8. I'm sorry I have not been here to show my sorry you have been struggling and that your mother is not tolerating activity.



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